Depression hits hard...harder when they don't "get it"

Let's be real for a minute, depression sucks. You heard me, it sucks. Depression has the tendency to come out of nowhere, rip any joy you have from a halfway decent day and slam you deep into the pit of despair...over and over and over again. Every therapist would tell you to seek some coping mechanisms that are both healthy and non-maladaptive; well, as an AB/DL, that's definitely one of my go-to coping skills. To be honest, if everyone could tap into their AB/DL side once in a while, wouldn't we save so much time and worry on psychological services! 

AB/DL has been an activity that has helped during times of great despair. The simplest act of wearing a diaper, going into little-space, flipping on a cartoon, and enjoying chocolate milk from a bottle is enough to take me right out of a dark place and into a calm, pleasant, "small," safe space. Even 30 minutes is enough to reset the insanity. Of course, this isn't my only coping mechanism for depression, it's one of many, but is definitely one of those that really helps things move along the fastest.

What has been difficult as a married AB/DL, especially a married AB/DL with two small children is the lack of opportunity I have to indulge these activities in a way that doesn't make my wife feel uncomfortable and in a way that keeps my children out of sight of a full-fledged little-space moment. My kids may eventually know, but it's not something that I will openly share with a 4 and 2 year old. But, to be completely honest, when your spouse doesn't really agree with or support the little-space moments, and other coping skills don't work, the depression hits harder. It has a different soured flavor. It's coupled with rejection, lack of acceptance, and desire for maladaptation. 

Finding the moments are difficult, depression is difficult, but we are all in this fight together. 

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